Windmills of Your Mind: Part One



Round like a circle and a spiral, like a wheel within a wheel
Never ending or beginning on the ever-spinning reel
Like a snowball down the mountain, or a carnival balloon
Like a carousel that's turning, spinning reels around the room
Like a clock that's hands are sweeping past the minutes on its face,
And the world is like an apple rolling silently in space.
Let the images unwind
Like the circles that you find
In the windmills of your mind…

"Windmills of your mind", rendition by Sting.



In her unstoppable curiosity regarding everything Andromeda Gillian stuck her nose into  every nook and cranny, and in one of the storage areas she found a real treasure -- a baby- grand piano and a stack of sheet music.   She arranged for it to be brought to the Obs  deck and now she sat down at it and touched the keys. It has been a long time since she  played last, but she remembered -- Major and Minor, black and white, happy and sad, just  like her life.  Wouldn't have it any other way.  In the music sheets she found one of her  favorites, The Moonlight Sonata by Beethoven.  Amazing how a piece of music  thousands of years old could still evoke such strong emotions.  She played it for a while  and than switched to lighter, happier pieces. Gillian was so engrossed in her music she  didn't hear Dylan come in.  He placed his hands on her shoulders and kissed the top of  her head.

"I didn't know you could do this."

"There are many things we don't know about each other, the whole point is to learn, to  discover together."

She leaned back on him, enjoying the warmth and quiet intimacy of the moment.

"So, was music a career ambition or a hobby for you?"

"Actually neither.  My father insisted I learned to play as a finger exercise."

"???"

"Piano scales dramatically improve hand dexterity.  Very important for a surgeon."

Dylan was about to say something when Beka's agitated voice came from intercom:

"Gillian, I need you in Tyr's quarters, this is an emergency!"

*   *   *

Fifteen minutes earlier Beka was on her way to the Mess Hall when something caught her  attention.  She just passed Tyr's quarters and his door was ajar. Now, Tyr never ever left  his door open.  Something had to give and after short argument with herself Beka the  Curious won over Beka the Cautious and peeked inside.  The lights were on low so she  couldn't see much but she heard strange noises coming from the direction of his sleeping  chamber. She just decided to venture a little further when she heard a soul-tearing  scream.  After a short pause it was followed by another, and than yet another.  These  sounds related such agony that Beka became genuinely scared.  She commanded the  lights on full and ran into Tyr's bedroom.  He was sprawled on the floor, one hand  clutching on to the sheet he was tangled in, the other grabbing his shoulder, blood  seeping from under his fingers.  He was drenched in sweat and his skin had a grayish tint.   Suddenly he let out another scream, his body arched and bucked off the floor, muscles  straining in agonizing rictus. That was when Beka paged Gillian.

Gillian ran in with Dylan close on her heels.  She was momentarily stunned by what she  saw, but recovered quickly. This was not the time to react, but to act; so she took the  hypo injector out of the emergency kit and carefully approached the Nietzschean.  Dylan  frowned:

"You shouldn't come close, he may hurt you. Let me do this."

"No, he will not hurt me, but I don't know how will he react to you.  I think it would be  better if you waited in the other room."

Both Dylan and Beka refused to move.  They wanted to be close in case Tyr does  something irrational, so Gillian proceeded.  She kept talking quietly, trying to keep him  calm, like she would a scared child.  Suddenly he turned to her and croaked:

"I can't take the pain any more. Help me."

"Why didn't you call me right away?"

"I was embarrassed.  I didn't want to look weak."

"Stubbornness is not a survival trait, Anasazi.  You should know better.  Take a deep  breath and try to relax a little, I am going to give you something for the pain and than I'll  take you to the Medical and we'll see what's wrong. "  He closed his eyes nodding his  acquiescence.

"Andromeda, please send a stretcher to Mr. Anasazi's quarters."

"On the way."

*   *   *

Gillian took one look at Tyr's shoulder and closed her eyes.  "By the Divine!"

"What?" Dylan and Beka looked puzzled.  Gillian turned to Dylan:

"Back on Andalla, when the two of you were taken by that … creature, she made Tyr  fight for her entertainment.  She thought herself a restorer of Gladiators.  The monster he  fought with managed to wound him.  He dismissed the injury; he was more concerned  with getting you and everyone else out.  He was sure his nanobots would take care of it.  He never brought it up again and I thought he was Ok. How could have I been so  negligent!"

Dylan put a hand on her shoulder, "Gillian, I was in the gym and the steam room with  him many times since then and I saw no sign of injury.  You didn't know and I am sure  that even he didn't know until recently."

Somewhat calmed, Gillian continued to examine her patient.  Five gushes left by the  creature's talons were inflamed and oozing blood and some sort of greenish-gray  substance.  She collected a sample for further testing and proceeded to carefully lance,  clean and seal each wound.  

Forty-eight hours later Tyr's condition didn't improve much.  The fever wouldn't go  down, he drifted in and out of consciousness and was still in a lot of pain.  Gillian looked  at the tests that she finished running, rubbed her eyes and turned to Rommie:

"I was hoping I was wrong, but this is the third time I re-ran the same test and the  outcome is consistent with the other two. I need you to send a message to Harper and  Trance.  They will have to cut their vacation short; I can't handle it without their  assistance. Also, please inform Captain Hunt and Captain Valentine of the test results."  

"Done."

Few minutes later Dylan and Beka walked in.  Both saw that Gillian was dead on her  feet, two days without sleep took their toll.  Hearing them come in, she started to speak:

"The situation is much more serious than I thought.  The wounds were infected with  time-released venom that not only caused the fever and pain, but also disabled Tyr's  immune system.  The nanobots responsible for his body's healing and internal defenses  are malfunctioning and I don't have enough knowledge of nanotechnology to correct the  problem."

"Harper will come up with something and Trance is pretty resourceful too.  I am sure  between the three of you you'll find a solution to the problem."  Dylan's confidence was  comforting, but Gillian had her doubts.  Before she could say anything, he continued:  "Why don't you get some rest before you make yourself sick. Maybe things will look  better tomorrow. "

"And who is going to stay here and take care of my patient?  You?"  She didn't mean to  snap at him, but she was too tired.  

"No, not him.  Me."  Gillian looked at Beka completely surprised.  She never thought  Captain Valentine would volunteer as a nurse and she wasn't sure in her abilities.  Her  ambivalence probably shown on her face, because Beka gave her a half-smile and said,  "Who do you think took care of my father when he would go on his Flash binges?   Believe me, I have had more practice nursing than I cared for.  I'll baby-sit Anasazi, go  and rest."

"C'mon, Beka will be fine here, plus Andromeda will monitor Tyr as well. We'll know  right away if anything is wrong."

"Ok, ok, I am going. Beka, please make sure to keep me informed."

Beka gave her a mock salute and pushed her out of the Medical.  Dylan followed, not  trusting Gillian completely. When it came to her patients she was more than stubborn.

*   *   *

Tyr was awake but reluctant to open is eyes.  He remembered the last time he was in  similar situation.  This time was not much different -- or wasn't it?  Something within his  body didn't feel right, but he didn't know what and that worried him. At least the pain was  manageable now.  He heard a faint movement and felt a hand on his forehead.  It was not  Gillian and neither it was Trance.  It smelled like … like Beka.  He was surprised she was  here and somewhat glad.  "Rebecca? Why are you here?" He asked, "where is Dr.  Ratischer?"

"Hello to you too, Tyr.  Gillian is hopefully resting, she was with you for two days  straight and Dylan almost reserved to the method you used last time to get her to sleep a  little."  Tyr chuckled. His friend was stubborn as a mule and as protective as a mother- bear of her cubs when it came to her patients. He wanted to say something but his throat  was too dry.  Beka understood:

"Thirsty?"

He nodded and she put her arm under his neck and carefully brought him up a little and  placed a cup to his lips.  He drank greedily. When he finished, she gently laid him back  down and went to the other side of the room.  

"Two days?"

"Yes. Two days.  Do you remember anything that happened to you?"

"I recall finishing my shift and going to my quarters.  For some reason I felt overly tired,  so I decided to go straight to bed.  I remember waking up overwhelmed with pain,  Gillian, going to Medical and than nothing until now."

Beka was standing next to him now and he felt a wet cool cloth moving over is face and  body, carefully avoiding his shoulder.  He liked the sensation and the fact that Beka was  doing it came as an added bonus.  However he also felt exposed and vulnerable, and that  he didn't like, so he stopped her hand with his.

"So, do you know what is wrong with me?"

"I leave it to Gillian to explain."

"Very well."

Beka hesitated a moment and than asked, "Why did you stop me?  Did I hurt you?"

"You did not hurt me, I just was not very comfortable with you ministering to me."

"You are not uncomfortable with Gillian helping you?"

"It is different with her."

"How?"

Tyr turned his head to better see her face and winced from sharp pain the small  movement caused.  He waited for the pain to subside and asked:

"Did she ever tell you how we met?"

"No, not really."

"To understand our relationship you would need to know how did it begin."

Beka settled back in her chair and looked at Tyr: "I am not going anywhere.  If you feel  up to it, I really want to hear this story."  

"Alright, Captain Valentine.  It all began about ten years ago, when I got out of the  mines.  I took one of the shuttles that belonged to the mining company and headed for the  Aurum system.  Auris-Prime was a place where a mercenary could find employment and  I needed funds badly.  I guess solar storms are really a bad omen for me.  Just as I was  approaching Auris I was caught in one of Gargantuan magnitude.  My shuttle was no  match for it and I was forced to crush-land on one of the neighboring planets.  That  miserable piece or rock didn't even have a name, just a number.  I hoped to sit the storm  out, repair my ship and be on my way, but as our resident Magog would say, the Divine  works in mysterious ways.  It is so happened that not long before my arrival, this planet  was raided by Drago-Katzov. Whoever survived the raid was bent on revenge.  I walked  into town with no intentions on interactions with the local populace. All I needed were  spare parts and some food, but in a few moments I was attacked. The mob didn't care that  I was not Drago-Katzov; all they cared about was the fact that I was a Nietzschean.  Outnumbered and outgunned I was severely wounded.  My attackers prematurely decided  that I was dead.  I waited for them to leave and crawled to a secluded alley behind small  bodega.  Only then I allowed myself to pass out. I regained consciousness sometime later from a flashlight beam in my eyes.  A young  woman, small and so slight in statue that at first I took her for a child, looked at me with  concern. I sensed no danger from her but still I tried to look as menacing as I could when  I asked:

"What, came to finish the job?"

"No, actually I was trying to help you."

"Why?"

"I am a doctor, that's what I do."

I believed her.  She was the straw of hope and I grabbed it.  She took me to her home and  tended my wounds. She helped me bathe and fed me and never even told me her name,  nor she asked for mine.  A human helping a Nietzschean without an ulterior motive.  That  evoked certain feelings within me, feelings I didn't know I was capable of experiencing  towards anyone outside my pride. When we exchanged names, I thought that I should  remember hers.

I was exhausted, feverish and still in pain. Finally I fell asleep, but not for long.  Another  solar storm came that night and my nightmares returned.  Again and again I saw my  mother being murdered, again and again I was drowning in blood, the blood of my  people, the blood of my family.  I knew I was dreaming but as usual I couldn't will  myself to wake up.  Suddenly the terror stopped.  I felt safe and protected; someone was  embracing me, holding me like a mother would hold a child.  I opened my eyes and saw  her, sitting next to me, my head on her shoulder, her arms around me.

"Do you know I could have killed you just now?"

She smiled, "but you didn't.  I am sorry if I violated your space, but you were screaming  and I felt such pain in your screams I didn't know what else to do.  I just wanted you to  stop hurting.  Do you want to talk about it?"

I barked "No!" and detached myself from her.  I turned to face the wall hoping she would  leave, but she just sat there, stroking my hair.  Just like my mother did when I was little.   So I told her about the darkest night of my life.  And finally I was able to cry.  And she  cried with me, for the people she never knew.  That night a bond formed between us that  was stronger than blood.  

My body was drained by the labor in the mines and the time I spent in the desert, so I  didn't heal as fast as I would have under normal circumstances, so I spent almost a month  with Gillian.  I knew that the longer I stayed the greater was the chance I was discovered,  so we made arrangements for me to leave the planet on one of the cargo transports.  One  of the crew decided that he'd make more by turning us in, so when I was leaving Gillian's  home we were arrested.  She was taken immediately, I managed to get away only to be  captured later.  She didn't know I was taken.  I escaped but failed to break her out of that  prison.  She thought I betrayed her.  When I was ready to try again the place was  swarmed by Magog.  I was told she had died in the attack so I stowed away on one of the  remaining transports and got away.  Ten years later I saw her here and you know the  rest."

Tyr looked at Beka and saw a suspicious glimmer in her eyes.  "I never thought you were  so emotional, Captain Valentine," he commented, a hint of a smile on his lips.

Beka swallowed the lump in her throat.  For the first time in her life she didn't know what  to say. Somehow she didn't feel like making one of her signature snappy comebacks, so  she just took his hand and squeezed it lightly.  He held on to her hand for a moment and  than let go.

"Rebecca, there is something I have been meaning to tell you.  Don't interrupt me, just  listen."  Beka nodded and he continued: "I owe you an apology.  Actually it is long  overdue, but I guess later is better then never.  I am sorry for insulting you that night.   Human women, at least the ones here, on Andromeda, are unique and I was wrong in my  generalizing. As Gillian once told me, it is not right to transpose one's prejudices towards  the species on to the individuals. Would you…"

Tyr paused and Beka waited for what he was about to say when holographic Andromeda  appeared next to them.  "Captain Valentine, it is time for Mr. Anasazi's medication.  You  have volunteered to relieve Dr. Ratischer, you shouldn't neglect your responsibilities."

"I've got to get Harper to adjust your timing routines, Rommie, because they sure are  off." Beka muttered to herself getting up and going over to the table where Gillian left a  number of loaded hypo injectors and instructions for her.  She gave him his shot and sat  back down.  The moment was lost and they spent some time in silence. Soon the sedative  took effect and Tyr fell asleep.  

*   *   *

"Look, even super-geniuses like me have their limits!"  Harper sounded exasperated.  He  spent past few days in Medlab, together with Trance, Gillian and Rev. He was able to  tweak Tyr's nanobots enough to stop them from attacking his body from within, but that  was it.  He couldn't restore their original function and he couldn't stabilize them.  If things  were to stay in their current state, Anasazi would have the body of a human. Plus the  existing nanobots will eventually deteriorate so he will have to have them replaced  regularly.  For him would mean dependency and vulnerability.  

Gillian delivered the news to him feeling like an executioner.  Tyr took the information in  and asked her to leave, he needed to be alone. He threw out anyone who attempted to talk  to him and locked himself in Medical.  He was overwhelmed by the feeling of despair.    He was Homo Sapience Invictus, things like that just didn't happen to him!  He roared  and smashed his fist into the wall making a noticeable dent.  And bruising and bloodying  his knuckles.  He twisted his mouth in mirthless smile.  Only a few days ago he wouldn't  even have noticed the impact and the damage would have been repaired by his body in  minutes.  Now he didn't even know his own body any more.  His endurance, his tolerance  for pain, his resistance to sickness, many other things that together constituted his  superiority have changed.  He roared again and started throwing things around.  In the  matter of minutes Med Deck looked like it's been hit by a tornado.  Suddenly Tyr felt  totally exhausted and had to brace himself against the wall.  He couldn't remain upright  so he slid down and sat on the floor.  He covered his face with his hands and remained  motionless for a while.  He didn't move even when he heard someone come in.  Few  seconds later something cold and wet landed on the floor next to him.

"Wrap your hand in it or it will swell."  Tyr recognized Harper's voice and looked up in  surprise.

"Leave, boy. Or I…"

"You what?  Kill me?  Nah, you are too busy feeling sorry for yourself.  'Me, Supreme  Being, now having to learn how to live like human!'  You are pathetic, Anasazi!  To think  that I actually believed your "While there is life, there is hope" crap.  

"So, you have a problem.  Who doesn't?  You are still alive, aren't you?  You have friends  even though the Divine knows you don't deserve to have any and they really care for you.   Your stomach isn't filled with Magog larvae like yours truly is. You have a way to  control and possibly improve your condition, so why the hell you are acting like that?   You said you care about Gillian, why did you hurt her feelings just now?  She spent days  by your side saving your miserable life -- again! -- and more days trying to find a cure for  you.  How dare you treat her the way you did?  How dare you treat any of us the way you  did? Get yourself together, Anasazi!"  

Harper was screaming in Tyr's face, angry with the Nietzschean.  As much as Seamus  hated to admit it, Tyr was his 'tower of strength'.  Tyr was not allowed to fall apart, it was  his, Harper's prerogative. Tyr was supposed to be the one grab him by the scruff of his  neck and shake sense into him.  Having to reverse roles was tough, but Harper felt he  owed Tyr that much.  That's why he risked his hide and went to talk to him.  

Tyr looked at Harper and for a moment Seamus was scared by the amount of pain and  anguish that filled his dark eyes.  He spoke quietly, almost inaudibly:  "Thank you, boy.  I  needed that."  He attempted to get up but failed and when Harper offered his hand he  accepted.  Seamus just managed to maneuver him up when Dylan walked in.  He took in  the devastation in Medical but made no comment and turned to Harper and Tyr:

"Mr. Harper, Rommie needs you in engineering.  Why don't you go and I'll take Mr.  Anasazi to his quarters."  He carefully guided Tyr through the hallways.  When they  reached Tyr's quarters he brought him in and settled him in the chair, sensing that trying  to put the Nietzschean to bed would be overstepping the boundaries. He went over to the  cooling unit and took out a few ice cubes and wrapped them in the towel. Handing the  makeshift compress to Tyr he said:

"There is nothing wrong with receiving help from those who care about you.  You just  have to learn to accept it."    

"Thank you, Dylan."

"You are welcome."  Hunt walked out, leaving Tyr alone with his thoughts.

*   *   *

Tyr found Gillian on the Obs Deck.   She was playing something familiar to him and after  a few more bars he smiled in recognition.  How fitting!  "Appassionata" by Beethoven, a  piece full of passion and anger.  She stopped abruptly and said without turning her head:

"It was not a public performance."

"You were not supposed to know I was here."

"I could feel you staring at me, Anasazi."

"It is not like you to be so…contemptible."

"Guess I learn from the pros."

"Look, I am sorry for the way I behaved.  What I said was…"

"What you said doesn't matter.  What you did does.  We all could say things we regret,  our mouths often outrun our brains.  But you shut everyone out, nullified our efforts to  help you.  Do you know that Rev and Trance spent days in the lab doing research?  Do  you know how many hours Harper went refusing to rest so he could try one more thing?   Don't apologize to me, I accept you the way you are.  Ask their forgiveness.  Accept their  help."

"You know, Harper and Dylan said the same things.  Actually I said it all to myself.   Although not before Harper gave me a verbal beating of my life."    

"And what did you do to him?"

"Thanked him for it."

"You are learning."

"So, do you forgive me, Kludge?"

"Yes, Uber, I forgive you."  Gillian went over and sat next to him.  She took his face in  her hands and looked him in the eye: "I promise I will do anything and everything to help  you."  

"I trust you.  As Little Professor eloquently put it, you keep saving my miserable life over  and over again.  Would you do me another small favor?"

"What?"

"Play something for me."  

Gillian smiled and nodded and went over to the piano.  She shuffled the music sheets for  a while until she found what she was looking for. Rachmaninoff, Piano Concerto # 2.

"I think you will like it."

*   *   *

Tyr was on Obs Deck long after Gillian finished playing and left.  He was rethinking his  life.  Beka walked in with a cup of coffee and a book and saw him here.  Not wanting to  intrude and hoping he didn't notice her she started to leave but his soft voice stopped her:

"Rebecca."

She turned around.

"Could I please talk to you?"

"Sure.  What's up?"  She was nervous, she had no idea why but she was, so she attempted  to hide it behind fake cheerfulness.

"Would you mind if I asked that we…spend time together?"

"What do you mean?"

"I mean that I enjoy your company and would like to spend time with you.  Does that  offend you in any way?"

"No, it's just…"

"Are you still upset with me about that evening?"

"No, I accepted your apology and I meant it.  It's just that it was unexpected, that's all.   But yes, I would like for us to spend time together."

"Good.  I am pleased.  Enjoy your reading."  He trailed his fingers over the back of her  hand that held the book, stood up and left.

*   *   *

Gillian woke up at 0200 hours to find the bed empty.  Again.  It was happening every  night since their return from Pellius.  She was hoping that Dylan would talk to her about  whatever was bothering him, but he didn't. She got up, put her robe on and went looking  for him. The first obvious place was his office, but he wasn't there, so she went to  hydroponics.  She heard the dribble of the basketball even before she walked in.  The ball  almost hit her in the head when she entered. Dylan was clearly startled by her presence.

"Didn't expect you here.  What are you doing up?"

"I could ask you the same question, only I did expect you to be here."

"Is Andromeda as usual keeping track of me?"

"I know you well enough, I don't have to ask her where you are."  She came closer to  him. "What is wrong, Dylan?"

"Nothing," he smiled, but the smile looked artificial. "Why don't you go back to bed, I'll  be there in a little while."

"I am not going anywhere until you talk to me.  Andromeda, engage privacy mode,  authorization Chief Medical Officer Dr. Gillian Ratischer."  Before the ship could reply  Dylan requested: "Andromeda, belay that order. Gillian, I told you that nothing is wrong.   Don't you know when to quit?  There are things that I need to work out on my own, so  please stop prying.  You can't solve everybody's problems."

Gillian felt like she was slapped in the face.  She willed herself to remain calm and said:  "Very well, Dylan, I will stop "prying" as you so eloquently put it.  But I want you to do  yourself a favor and talk to someone before things get out of hand.  You have to  remember that by neglecting your health, be it physical or mental, you face potential  harmful consequences not only for yourself but also for your crew.  You are responsible  for the lives of others, Dylan, never forget that.  Good night."  She walked out of  Hydroponics and headed straight for her rooms.  She didn't feel like returning to Dylan's  bed.

Few moments after Gillian left Rommie walked in. "Dylan, Dr. Ratischer is right.  You  haven't gotten a full night's rest since your return from Pellius.  And when you do sleep  your heart rate is increased, your breathing is erratic and perspiration level is elevated.   All these are signs that you are having nightmares.  Do I take that your time on the planet  is the source of these nightmares and you don't want to discuss it?"

"I can't discuss it.  I can't remember what happened to me.  I know the end result but  who did it and why I can't recall."

"Dylan, selective amnesia is a defense mechanism.  Your mind couldn't deal with what  happened, so it blocked the memory."

"I understand that."

"So why didn't you tell to Gillian what you just told me?"

"I was embarrassed.  I felt that if she learns that I couldn't deal with it, she would think  less of me."

"But you didn't feel that she would think less of you after what you just said to her?  I am  sorry, Dylan but I fail to see the logic in that.  You seem to care about her a great deal but  every time you do something to jeopardize your relationship. I don't recall you ever  acting this way with Dr. Reilly."

"It was different with Sarah.  I am not saying I didn't love her, but it was all very toned  down.  Gillian on the other hand makes me feel things I didn't know I was capable of  feeling.  With her I loose my head."

Rommie folded her arms on her chest and cocked her head. "Dylan, should you really be  telling all this to me?  I have a feeling that someone else needs to hear it, and soon."

Dylan looked at Rommie and suddenly hugged her tightly. "Thanks, Rommie!"  He  almost ran out of Hydroponics.  At the door he turned and tossed her the ball. She caught  it and smiled.  

Finding his quarters empty Dylan proceeded to Gillian's. He pressed the access button a  few times but got no answer, so he requested a lock override and walked in.  The room  was dark and after brightly lit hallway he couldn't see her, but he was sure she was here.   He heard a soft rustle of fabric, probably her robe or a sheet, and than she said, "lights on,  low."  The room filled with soft light.  Dylan saw that Gillian was sitting with her back to  him, looking at the stars in the viewer. He ran his hand through his hair.  She asked in a  flat voice:

"Why are you here?"

"I came to my room but you weren't there."

"Did you really expect me to be?"

"No."

"Then I ask you again, why are you here?"

"I came to apologize."

"Don't bother."

"Gillian, please listen to me!"  She turned and now he could see her profile.  "You didn't  deserve what I said to you.  I was not angry with you, I was angry with myself.  I was  afraid that if I admit that I have a problem you would think less of me."

She now turned completely and Dylan saw that she was crying.  "Dylan, we are lovers  and I was hoping we are friends.  If you cannot trust me, whom do you trust then? I am  not asking you to reveal a tactical secret or break diplomatic confidentiality.  I do not  interfere in the affairs of Captain Hunt, but I want to be involved in the life of Dylan  Hunt.  I would never judge you, Dylan; and I would never think less of you, because I  love you."

Dylan went over to her, kneeled and rested his head on her lap.  Gillian ran her hands  through his hair.  "It is three in the morning.  Time you went to bed."  

"Ok, I just need a quick shower."      

He showered and returned to bed.  Gillian put her arms around him and he held her tight.  She traced her finger along a faint scar on his chest, a memento of his trip to Pellius. He  shuddered and covered her hand with his to stop the movement.  Suddenly a realization  came to her: "Dylan is this about Pellius?  About what happened to you there?"

He laughed, no humor in his laugh. "It's about the fact that I can't remember what  happened to me there.  And when I go to sleep I have nightmares but I can't remember  about what.  So I stopped sleeping, because I couldn't take it any more."

Gillian tightened her hold on him.  "And you were afraid to tell me that?"

"More embarrassed than afraid.  And lately you had your hands full."

Gillian felt a pang of guilt.  "I am sorry love, I didn't realize I was neglecting you."

"No, you weren't. I know how important your work is to you, and I know how close you  are with Tyr.  It was hard on you."

"Right now we are not talking about me."

"No, we are talking about us.  I realize now that in a relationship there shouldn't be 'you'  or 'me' but 'us'.  Whatever we do affects us both.  I don't want to cause you any more  pain.  I love you."  He turned her face to him and kissed her.  His kiss was more  expressive than anything he said.  For a moment they were completely lost in each other  and than both started laughing when they heard Andromeda's voice: "Privacy mode  engaged, authorization Andromeda Ascendant."

"You know, Captain Hunt, your ship sometimes takes too much on herself."

"I couldn't agree more. Authorization confirmed, Captain Dylan Hunt.  Thank you,  Rommie!  Now, where were we?"      

     *   *   *

Today was a rare day when Gillian welcomed her shift in Command.  Usually she hated  them and complied only because she understood the necessity of it.  Just like she insisted  that all crewmembers be trained at least in emergency medical procedures, Dylan wanted  everyone to have working knowledge of Command and its operations.  But today, after  spending hours convincing the crew that regular physical examinations were not her  whim but a standard and necessary procedure, she needed the quiet.  She had a lot to  think about.  

Several hours into her shift the communication console beeped.  Gillian looked at the  sensors and pushed the internal commlink:

"Bridge to Captain Hunt. We are receiving an incoming transmission form Jaguar-Sabra  home world. Archduke Charlemagne Bolivar is requesting communication with you.   Should Andromeda patch it to your quarters?"

"No, I'm on my way to the bridge."

Moments later Dylan walked in, followed by Beka.  "Andromeda, put it through please."

The view screen lit up and Bolivar's face appeared.

"Dylan, it is good to see you!  Beka Valentine, I hope you are well!"

Dylan's tone was rather cool:  "Archduke Bolivar, what can we do for you?"

"As of yesterday, I am a proud father of a son given to me by Elssbett, and to honor this  momentous occasion Jaguar-Sabra prides are having a celebration in three days hence to  which you are cordially invited.  Your entire band of merry men … and women is  invited, actually. This event will be open for our other non-Nietzschean alliances, so  Dylan, don't pass an opportunity to make your pitch for Commonwealth. The details and  dates will follow shortly. "

Dylan was about to say something when Bolivar's gaze fell on Gillian.

"Say, Dylan, and who is this lovely lady?"

"This is our Chief Medical Officer Dr. Gillian Ratischer.  She only joined the  Andromeda's crew recently."

"It's a pleasure to make your acquaintance, Doctor.  If these people mistreat you in any  way, please consider working for me.  I am in dire need of a personal physician."

"I am sure your highness that the pleasure is all yours.  As for your offer of employment  – I am a surgeon, so unless you want something removed or amputated…" She made an  apologetic gesture with her hand.  She heard Beka in the back making noises, trying hard  not to laugh at her last comment.

Bolivar took the joke in stride, " I do believe Dylan you have a very good taste in women.   Captain Valentine, my wife, now Dr. Ratischer.  You have to tell me how you do it.   Well, I am off.  Good day." And the communication was terminated.

Gillian was still digesting what she just heard when she saw Dylan trying to tiptoe out of  the Command.  In her most honeyed voice she said:

"Captain Hunt, will you meet me on Obs deck at 1900 hours?  I believe we have  something to discuss."

"Yes, Ma'am."  When he left, hologram of Andromeda appeared and turned to Gillian:

"You must tell me what you find out.  I have been in suspense about him and Elssbett  Mossadim for almost a year now.  Any longer and I will blow a fuse."  At this moment  Beka fell on the floor laughing.

"I feel sorry for poor Dylan.  Outnumbered and outgunned…Gillian, please go easy on  him, we may still need him alive."

"Rommie, is he still there listening?"

"No, Gillian, he went straight to his office."

"Good.  Look, I have no intentions of giving him hard time; I just want him to think I do.  I will never hold him responsible for things he did before we met. But, I have an idea.   Beka, are you willing to play a part?"

*   *   *

Dylan was already on the Obs deck when Gillian came in.  He thought if he goes full  speed ahead he'll gain advantage of the situation, so before she said anything he  practically yelled:  "Ok, ok, so I slept with Elssbett Mossadim!  Before she became  Bolivar's wife!"  Gillian said nothing so he continued:  "And I only kissed Beka once or  twice. Well, there was this time when I walked in on her in the shower … err out of the  shower… ahm… well she was in the towel anyway."  He started stammering and  blushed, but Gillian was merciless.  She looked at him with complete surprise in her face  and said:

"Dylan, I of course appreciate the honesty, but I had no intentions to discuss your prior  relationships.  All I wanted to talk about was what I should wear to the Bolivar's affair.  I  have never been to a ball before, so I needed your expertise on the conduct at such  events."  She looked at him and at this time she allowed a smile to appear in her eyes.  The realization of being had dawned on Dylan and he said quietly in almost purring  voice:

"Very nicely done, Doctor Ratischer.  Tell me, was it a private joke or the whole crew  enjoyed the show?"

"Well, you didn't give me a chance to engage privacy mode."

"Not that it was your intention anyway, right?"

"Now you'll never know."  She started to inch carefully but quickly towards the exit.

"Just wait 'till I get my hands on you!"  Dylan saw that Gillian was attempting a hasty  retreat and quickly cut off the way to the doors. His face was severe but his eyes were  laughing.

"So, my Chief Medical Officer thinks she can play jokes on me?  Well, now she will face  the consequences. But I prefer to deal with wayward officers in private. Now, what  should I do with you?  Ah, I have an idea."  With that he picked her up, slung her over his  shoulder and took off almost running. He noticed on the way that Beka was standing in  the hallway, saluting him, wrapped in a towel.  Rommie looked amused, Harper was  laughing so hard he was in tears and Tyr managed to keep his face composed but his  entire body was shaking from concealed laughter.  Dylan paused, put Gillian down for a  moment and said in his best commanding voice:

"Today the joke is on me, but we'll see who gets the last laugh.  I am sure there are  plenty of ducts to be cleaned and floors to be washed with toothbrushes, so I suggest you  make yourselves scarce before I begin giving out these assignments."  The audience  disappeared in a matter of seconds; Dylan picked Gillian up again and marched to his  quarters. Entering he said: "Andromeda! Privacy mode, authorization Captain Dylan  Hunt."

Once inside he put Gillian down, plopped on the couch and buried his face in his hands.   She went over to him and sat down.  Now she wasn't sure this whole thing was that  funny.

"Look, I hope I didn't hurt your feelings, I … we certainly didn't mean to.  It's just that  you looked so nervous when Bolivar started listing your 'conquests', I couldn't resist.  I  guess my fondness of practical jokes is another thing you didn't know about me."  

Dylan was silent and Gillian became edgy.  He wouldn't say anything or look at her, so  she put a tentative hand on his shoulder.

"Dylan?  Are you alright? Look, I am sorry, ok?  Really, really sorry."  

Suddenly he turned, grabbed her hand and pinned her body to the couch.  He then kissed  her breathless and laughingly said:

"I was a king of practical jokes when I was a cadet. You, my dear, are still wet behind  your ears when it comes to pranks. So, next time do yourself a favor and consult the  specialist."

"Are pranks your only area of expertise, Captain?"

"Well, there are few other things I prize myself on…"

"Do they include…" And she whispered something in his ear.

"Why don't you be the judge of that!"  And he picked her up again and carried her to the  bedroom.  

*   *   *

"Rommie!  Rommie, where are you?"  Beka was frustrated.  Where was this usually  omnipresent ship when she really needed her?

"What can I do for you, Captain Valentine?"  Holo-Rommie blinked behind Beka's back,  startling her and thoroughly enjoying it.

"I … I need something nice to wear to this Nietzschean thing we are all invited to."

"You mean that you are not going to give me and Dylan a headache trying to convince us  that leather pants, boots and a gun belt are perfect attire for a formal dinner?  What  gives?"

"Can you keep a secret?"

"I keep more secrets than I actually care to, so…"

"Ok, point taken.  You see, Tyr asked me to be his escort at this event and I want to look  nice."

"A-ha.  I see."

Beka threw her hands in the air: "Forget it, sorry I asked.  I guess I'll just won't go."

"Calm down, Beka, I was joking.  Let's go find you a dress, shell we?" And Rommie  pulled hesitant Beka with her.  

Trance and Gillian joined them in the wardrobe room and girls had their fun trying on  dresses.  Afterwards Trance went to her garden in Hydroponics.  Dylan wanted to present  Elssbett with flowers and Trance was really excited to put her talents to work.  She  planned to make a growing arrangement so it could be later re-planted.  She hated cut  flowers.

She was humming happily and trying different combinations of plants and branches when  suddenly one of the flowering bushes that were recently brought aboard Andromeda  started to shimmer and change shape. Trance looked at it as the shrub became translucent  and formed a cloud of sparkly dust that slowly took shape of a woman.  Tall woman in  shiny tight catsuit and veiled face.  The purple girl stood there, speechless, looking at the  apparition.  The creature circled her and purred:

"Hello, pet. Forget me so soon?"

Trance was desperately trying to squeeze a sound out of her throat but was almost  paralyzed with fear.  She was patting her hand on the wall behind her looking for a comm  button when her visitor said:

"Don't bother.  I will sense anyone approaching and simply turn back to a tree.  Now,  pet, answer me.  Why did you leave me? You didn't like my gardens?"

"I… I didn't like the games you were playing."

"These were not games, pet.  I needed those people so I could live. You know what I  need to sustain me.  So, few had to die for me to continue.  Big deal!  Your brothers and  sisters play with worlds and nations, are they any better them I am?"

"I don't play with worlds, I play with flowers.  What do you want here Isis?"

"Ah, you remember my name.  I don't use it any more; after fifteen thousand years it  bores me. I call myself Chameleon.  Rather fitting, don't you think? And it's not what do  I want, it's whom do I want.  I want the one they call Dylan.  He got away from me last  time.  I don't like when men refuse me and I hate when they run away."

"So what do you need me for?"

"You know I can't perform my rituals here.  I have to be on the ground; I need the power  of soil with me when I take my due from men."

"You mean when you mate with them and suck their energy from them, don't you?"

"Crudely put, but yes. And there is where you come in.  You all are going to the Jaguar  home world tomorrow, is that correct?"

"Yes"

"Good.  The Royal Palace is built on the grounds that have extensive caves underneath.  The entrance to these caves is at the duck pond, under the Tea House.  You will lead him  there, and the rest is up to me. Remember, I want Dylan, but anyone will be fair game.   And as an added incentive – if you fail to deliver, I'll kill the little Jaguar prince and  make sure everyone will see a certain purple alien do it"

"Why don't I just throw you out the airlock, Isis?"

"First, I told you, I like to be called Chameleon, and second – go ahead and throw me out,  I will simply come back.  You can't kill me.  You can't run away from me. You just have  to obey me."

The creature began to shimmer and dissolve in the air, taking once again the shape of a  tree.  The transformation was almost complete when Trance heard:

"I hope you know what is going to be the centerpiece of your arrangement?"

Trance slumped down and cried.  She had to do it.  It was either Dylan or the child.  And  she knew that Isis would not stop until she gets what she wants. But there had to be a way  out of this situation, right?  There was a possibility of a perfect outcome, even if the  chances were ten million six hundred and seventy two thousand five hundred and eighty  seven to one.  More or less.

Rommie plastered herself to the outside wall of Hydroponics.  If she had a heart it would  have been in her throat.  She has heard the entire exchange and now she had to do  something.  She couldn't put her Captain, her crew or the innocent child in danger.  She  couldn't even tell anyone what she heard – there was no guarantee that this creature  couldn't read minds. "I am a warship, I can do anything." She thought and left the deck.


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